"idontwannabeyouanymore" (stylized in all lowercase) is a song by American singer Billie Eilish from her debut EP, Don't Smile at Me (2017). It was released through Darkroom and Interscope Records on July 21, 2017, as the fifth single from the EP.
Background and release
The song was co-written by Eilish and her brother, Finneas O'Connell, who also produced the track. Eilish has stated that the song was inspired by her experiences with depression. In an interview with Genius, she remarked that "depression can happen to anyone no matter who you are or what you have and there is no shame to admitting that you feel this way." The song was conceived as a counterpart to her earlier single "Copycat"—while "Copycat" addresses someone trying to imitate her, "idontwannabeyouanymore" turns that sentiment inward, expressing a desire to stop being oneself.
Composition
Musically, "idontwannabeyouanymore" has been described as a pop and R&B track with jazz and neo soul-influenced melody. According to sheet music on Musicnotes.com, the song has a tempo of 57 beats per minute and is performed in the key of E minor, with Eilish's vocal range spanning from G3 to D5. Many critics noted influences from Lana Del Rey and Amy Winehouse in the song's style. Lyrically, the song deals with themes of self-doubt, negative self-esteem, and the pressure of societal expectations.
Commercial performance
The song charted at number 96 on the US Billboard Hot 100 and number 78 on the UK Singles Chart. It has received multi-platinum certifications in several countries, including a 2× Platinum certification from the Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA) and a Platinum certification from the British Phonographic Industry (BPI).
Critical reception
Critics have praised the song for its emotional vulnerability and vocal delivery. Clash magazine described it as a "breathy catharsis," while Atwood Magazine commended Eilish's vocal capacity. NME ranked the song at number 20 on its list of "Every single Billie Eilish song ranked in order of greatness." Eilish's performance of the song for the German music platform COLORS remains that channel's most viewed video, with over 100 million views. The song has also been covered by artists including Kelly Clarkson and Sheldon Riley.
